Tuesday, July 29, 2008, 9:53 AM
its 1am in the morning now... hmm..just now went to buy my gf's bday present. luckily i managed to control myself or else i tink i will overspend lor. phew.. i gota ask from the cashier a calculator to calculate how much of stuff i took. haha.. funny siak! hopefully my gf will love it alot. haha.. durin my long ride back hm just now. alot of things went through my mind. mostly is my future.. i notice tis past few wks the main focus tat pple tok to me is my future. i can seriously say tat i quite hate the future. but sometimes i also love it. i noe its abit contradicting but it jus sux lar. i can say that i enjoy my workin life now but not the accounts. i just love hanging out wif friends and making jokes and other stuff. my future as a accountant??? i can say tat it is not 100%. my dream. come on man.. tats not my lifestyle and my character. wat can i do in my future.. tis is the question tat reali spins in my head. hmm..mayb i should go apply for uni or even take another full time course and avoid this problem for a few years. but i noe tat i can forever hide from this future thing. i remember once there was this football coach told me that my biggest weakness was not able to make good or quick decision during matches. i do agree wat he said and i guess wat my football coach said is comin back to haunt me in real life. i miss times in sch... hanging in the canteen, 'studying' in the library, eat eat eat, camps, orientation stuff, disturbin lecturers and students n etc... i had lots of memory for tis man. miss them real bad. haha.. anyway, those were the past. looks like i gota continue searchin my wats my future hold for me. my fav saying.. 'zhou yi bu..can yi bu' aka 'walk one step.. see one step'. in the end, there's no conclusion... me signing off @ 1.13am. go slp bah kelvin.. haiz...

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